Dreamzzz

My wonderful friend recently posed a really great question on her blog. When I initially responded I said something cute but then I really started to think about what she asked. So, I hope she doesn’t mind but here’s her question (slightly revised):

“Why are there so many things I want to do???  Sometimes I wonder why I’m such a big dreamer.  I talk about them alot, and yet alot of the time, they don’t happen…They’re crazy and out there, and sometimes weird, but they are my heart!!  It’s so easy to say “well …go do it!!  what are you waiting for?!?”  But what is it that keeps us from doing these things sometimes?  When should it end??  When is the line drawn for how far you can really go with your dreams?”

When I started to ponder this on my own I realized my serious response. My answer is there is never an end to our dreams, no matter how crazy or weird they might be! However, there are two types of dreams. The first type are just cool things to think about. The second are things that run deep within your veins. Things that you absolutely know you are destined for.  What stops us from achieving that second type of dream?  We do. A lot of times we are our biggest impediment. We don’t just step out and do it. I will say this though. I can’t say that in every situation it’s always us. Sometimes it can be timing and circumstances.  I just know that in my experience I have found that more often than not, it’s us. We’re holding us back.

Conversion to Blogging … But Closing my Twitter Account to Keep the Balance

It took me a long time to decide whether or not I wanted to do this. Whether I wanted to bear my soul to the universe. Blogging seems to have become on of the latest trends … I’m putting it right up there with facebook and twitter.  In fact, I couldn’t completely make up my mind. Proof of this being that I created this blog in June and I am just now writing something. However, over the last three-ish months I realized that there’s a lot that I’m learning and not to share it or even write it down would cause it to be forgotten by mostly myself. I also want those I love to know how I’m growing and what’s plain going on in my life.  It’s so difficult to stay close when separated by so much distance sometimes.

Okay so now that I’m done justifying my bending to a social trend I begin my first blog. Wait … wasn’t that 157 words ago?

Anyway … the name of my blog. Saturday’s Not Long Enough. Aside from its very obvious and true meaning it holds deeper meaning to me. Two years and nine months ago I graduated from college. Shortly after graduating, the Lord opened the door for an amazing job that I’ve been blessed to have. However, working 40 hours a week and having a life outside of work leaves very little time for someone to just work on themselves. Saturday’s are those days for me. Days where there is no work element and all that remains is daily life. Time to to be who you’re supposed to be as a child of God. To grow. To be better.

I want to be better.

And this isn’t something new. For the past two years and nine months I have been growing to be a better person than I am. Some days I feel are more of an accomplishment than others. I’ve been trying to learn from every experience and to grow from it. To be a totally kingdom minded person. I guess what triggered this thought is something I was reading in scripture the other night. I was reading about John the Baptist. John 3:22-36 In this passage one of John’s followers comes up to him and basically says “John, everyone is following Jesus, they like him better now.” but John doesn’t mind. Not one bit. His response is something along the lines of “Good! I’m glad! I don’t need people following me, when the real deal is here. He’s here and I am glad that many are following him. I become less so that he is increased” Man! I want to be like John. His perspective from the very beginning is the cause of the kingdom and not himself. As though it’s his first nature to know that we should come second! It was a pleasant reminder of how my mind and spirit should function.

So I don’t want to waste my Saturdays. They’re just not long enough in real life. But maybe I can suspend them through this blog.

Thanks for reading!